“There are no coincidences with God. He can use you – just as you are and just where you are. Even if it’s a really crummy place. Perhaps even more so if it’s a really crummy place. God has never worked in me and through me more than He did during the times I was walking through the darkest valleys of my life. As we navigated the illnesses and deaths of our two boys, God gave me the desire to be open, honest and vulnerable in sharing our story. What started as an intent to share medical updates in an efficient way, turned into a platform for sharing our hearts and what God was doing in our lives. And He used it. He used it mightily. Words penned from my sons’ hospital rooms traveled farther and reached more lives than I ever could have imagined. I sat beside their beds, wondering, “Why him? Why us?” while pleading with God to change our circumstance, but what He did was so much more. A place that held the worst moments of our lives was also the place He used us the most.”
Focus: Family + Motherhood
“If something happens to him, I really don’t know if I’ll make it.”
I know for a fact said those fateful words a little over a year ago. To catch you up on our story a little, one of our twin sons, Logan, began having seizures in 2012, at the age of 17 months. After several months of trying to figure out what was causing the seizures, we received a diagnosis of a terminal, genetic disorder. The disease progressed very rapidly, and Logan ended up passing away a month before his second birthday. We were devastated. Of course. But we had his twin brother Griffin, and he was for us the very picture of hope and life that we desperately needed.
Coffee shops are my FAVORITE. Seriously, I could sit at one for hours, smelling the coffee beans, the pastries and just enjoying the atmosphere while writing or reading. Anthem coffee in Tacoma, WA, one of my favorite spots, just partnered up with a new coffee app company and what do you know, the first coffee […]
Why do I feel defeated? That’s a question I recently posed to my Dear Friend and Co-Founder of Catalyst Women – Danielle Wingate – as I tried to explain that I had nothing to contribute for this month’s blog. I furthered shared with her that ever since I agreed to be a CW contributor and […]
“…I can’t explain why I let my mind wander to this fearful place in such a precious moment. But God so sweetly showed me what I needed to see next. I felt like he was saying, “Yes, you are responsible for caring for her, raising her, showing her the way, but this is what it looks like to trust wholly and completely. This little girl is asleep in your lap without a care in the world because she trusts you with her entire being. She lacks nothing, wants for nothing, and rests in perfect peace because she has you.” It hit me like a ton of bricks. That’s exactly what He wants to be for me. He wants me to fall into his arms, trusting Him with every part of me, relying on Him to provide for my every need and bear my every burden.”
Parenting my three children has been especially challenging as of late. There’s been lots of disobedience, sibling rivalry and bad attitudes when they receive consequences for their bad choices. So I recently took my cares and concerns to Jesus in the form of a gripe session. He made these children, so surely, He can provide […]
“Two years into it, we found out it was unlikely we could conceive. I put a lot of blame and shame on myself… Is it my fault I can’t have babies? You don’t want to tell anyone…
The challenge in that season is staying connected. We are fighting all the time. Taking my temperature. Everything has to be done so on a schedule because you are trying to get pregnant.
Keep God first. Your relationship second. The hope + the promise third.”
Focus: Motherhood + Family
Raising little humans is full of the best of times and the worst of times. Our imperfections as parents are OK. Only one man is perfect, and thankfully, He stands in the gap for us. He’s our ever-present help in the time of trouble (Psalms 46:1). When we are weak, we can be made strong in Him (2 Corinthians 12:10). There’s more. God recently shared this with me: You are living your happily ever after right now. Today. At this very moment. I know what you may be thinking? How is THIS my happily ever after? How is that possible, you ask, as you look around at a sink full of dirty dishes, a toddler who needs a diaper change but won’t let you change him or her, walls decorated in permanent marker scribbles, a teenage daughter wearing something you do not approve of, or a 5-year-old throwing another temper-tantrum because he or she cannot have another cookie.
The key to living happily ever after is to appreciate your life exactly as it is. The areas that need change and growth should be given to God.
“My cup runneth over…but so does my laundry.”
Do you ever have a plan or picture that goes over perfectly in your mind? Yep. Me too. So my toddler was starting off to school last Monday and trust me, I had her bag packed, the cutest outfit laid out and everything ready for the picture perfect moment. I got her and my son out of the car, only to realize I couldn’t find my phone. ANYWHERE.